Meanings

Around 6:08AM, I had received an email from Mushna, an officemate of mine here in Western Wats, containing this message ....

Standing for what you believe in,

Regardless of the odds against you,

and the pressure that tears at your resistance,

... means courage.

Keeping a smile on your face,

When inside you feel like dying,

For the sake of supporting others,

... means strength.

Stopping at nothing,

And doing what's in your heart,

You know is right,

... means determination.

Doing more than is expected,

To make another's life a little more bearable,

Without uttering a single complaint,

... means compassion.

Helping a friend in need,

No matter the time or effort,

To the best of your ability,

... means loyalty.

Giving more than you have,

And expecting nothing,

But nothing in return,

... means selflessness.

Holding your head high,

And being the best you know you can be,

When life seems to fall apart at your feet,

Facing each difficulty with the confidence,

That time will bring you better tomorrows,A

nd never giving up,

... means confidence.

This message was really that a coincidence. I and Mark arrived at work five (5) minutes past four (4) in the morning (and that means we're late). As I logged on to my PC, I received five (5) messages on my email (excluding the one Mushna sent) and it all referred to what will I be working be with today. I feel tired because last night I didn't got that good sleep since the airconditioner in my rooms not functioning well, and the lights we're on. Upon opening the mails, I feel like declaring for a break or even yet "let's just call this a day" could be far more better.

Now here comes the enlightening part. As I read Mushna's message, I feel kinda struck by lightning.

"Standing for what you believe in, Regardless of the odds against you, and the pressure that tears at your resistance, ... means courage." really tells me to believe that regardless of me being that tired and lazy, I should have the courage to face the pressure of today's projects.

"Keeping a smile on your face, When inside you feel like dying, For the sake of supporting others, ... means strength." really tells me to keep a smile on my face even if I feel like dying because of me feeling so sick. My officemates are wondering why I do look so gloomy at morning. I need the strength to pursue things .... a working brain to get the logic of my projects.

"Stopping at nothing, And doing what's in your heart, You know is right, ... means determination." really tells me to be determined with my everday work. As I progress from my day to day training with Jon, I feel like that I'm just doing things great. Even though there are times that I feel like I'm not right (and that's why I have to consult Jon with it), it really pays good when you stop at nothing to finish a project.

"Doing more than is expected, To make another's life a little more bearable, Without uttering a single complaint, ... means compassion." really tells me that it isn't nice to complain about something not ought to be complained. My physique always tells me that I should complain to myself for having a day-to-day sick feeling. I was wrong about that. I can do mare than it is expected, and I'm always trying to reach that mark.

"Helping a friend in need, No matter the time or effort, To the best of your ability, ... means loyalty." really tells me that I should help others. Here in the office, I have 7 people whom I spend most of the day with. We always do this and do that. We consult with each other in order to comply with things to the best of our abilities. At the same time, it's friendship that we have all acquired.

"Giving more than you have, And expecting nothing, But nothing in return, ... means selflessness." really tells me that I should still give my very all. In my life I had done several things, and I don't expect a return for it. I dunno why I do that, most people do think that I should treat myself first before I can treat others. Most were downfalls for me, but I lived with it. Right now, I'm living a cool life.

"Holding your head high, And being the best you know you can be, When life seems to fall apart at your feet, Facing each difficulty with the confidence, That time will bring you better tomorrows, And never giving up, ... means confidence." really tells me that I should be that confident. Not to be over-confident, I do think I'm confident with my work and/or with my doings. I always see that life seems to fall apart at my feet, especially last summer when I feel like I have no hopes for graduation. But I always think that I CAN. I really can.

But oh well. Here I am, still striving the outskirts of Cebu City. I try to change things the way it was supposed to be. All of my friends would really be that shocked when they see a new me. Of course, I WANTED TO BE SOMEBODY NEW. I wanted to be somebody new to face a new challenge ... and also to fortify THE STRENGTH that enveloped me, and that STRENGTH was named as "YOU KNOW WHO =)".