Worthless Creation
Wednesday, August 31, 2005

"Pinoy Windows" - Something To Be Dealt With

Recently I had browsed over iSTORYA.net. It's been a long time since I had browsed the forums. I happened to pass by the "Software and Games" section, and I happened to stare at a post which states of an existence of a Pinoy Windows. Without hesitation, I went to the link and read the article.

Upon reading it, I took note of the capabilities of the operating system. It doesn't support networking and limits users to running only three programs at a time. This is pretty bad because most corporations here are aiming to have operating systems that support networking, and even a kid will run more than three applications at a time. It is quite cheap compared to the home edition, but somehow most of the Pinoys are going for cracks and/or use open-source operating systems like Linux.

Here's the catchy part: "help the local economy become globally competitive". I think they should have not abstracted the very reason to stop software piracy. Filipinos are globally competitive with our skills and knowledgeability of things, but somehow it's all with the help of piracy. I admit that I had used pirated softwares, but it still gained me knowledge, and I can compete with other guys as well.

I am not into piracy, infact I am against it. Basically it's a pain in the ass for software developers. What I am furious is about the abstraction made on this innovation.


Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Cold-tagious

For the past two weeks, I was really worried with Jeremy's condition. He had severe coughs and colds, and he always feel feverish. Whatever medicine he would take, he still looks sick, and at work it seems like he wants to sweat himself just to be freed from the feverish feeling.

Last week, Sam was the one who feels feverish. Not to mention also, Nova had a sore throat which eventually made her skip work for two days. At the same time, Jeffrey had coughs and colds. The three were not feeling well. I told them that they should eat fruits like Jeremy so that they can gain up with their condition.

And now, here I am in front of the PC, with severe coughs and colds. I think it was because of last week that I barely had sleep and my resistance to such viruses is low. I'm not really prone to sickness, but it just caught me. I feel like feverish, but I still have to work.

So in Mathematical terms, it's like if Jeremy had colds, then Sam can be contaminated. If Sam has colds, then Jeffrey can be contaminated. If Jeffrey has colds, then I can be contaminated. Therefore, applying the rule of transitivity, if Jeremy had colds, then I can be contaminated. Darns, "cold-tagious" though.

*Coughs and Sniffs*


Monday, August 29, 2005

If Only

.... I can find the word "If Only" on Jennifer Love Hewitt's movie "If Only".

Yesterday had been a drama day for me, Jeffrey, Sam, Richelle, and Donna. Before we have met, me, Jeffrey, and Sam played DotA Allstars. We're supposed to have a badminton game at 4PM. Bad thing is that we forgot the time and it was 4:30PM that we had finished a game. We got there at the badminton court at 5PM, and we just extended an hour so that the five of us can play.

After the game, we went to Ayala to have our supper at Dessert Factory. We stayed there for about 2 hours, talking about anything. We talked about our love lifes, everything about the word love. I was so overwhelmed of their stories, and so I gave them a suggestion that we should watch "If Only". The movie will start at 9:20PM, so we still have time to reach the movie house on time.

We watched. The five of us we're very silent on the movie house. I shed a tear, and I don't know on the others. The movie gives me a lightning in the heart. "If only I could have hold on to that very girl who's very dear to me." If only ....

The movie's great though, but somehow I ended my night with a sad emotion. I think that I should have moved on, but nonetheless it was still hard for me. As Donna tells me, "you're so tragic with girls." Am I this tragic? Damn!


Sunday, August 28, 2005

Such A Work-Blooper

Lately I had been working nightshifts due to the fact that I don't want to wake up early at 4AM to be at the office before 5AM. What's good for me is that I just sleep all day and go to the office before 11PM.

Yesterday was really a fuzz. I went home last friday 6PM and had slept by 7PM. So that means that I was in the office for about 20 hours. I don't know what came into me that I stayed long. I finished my work that time during my shift, and I had all the available time that I had. I ate three company meals already, and I was so abusive that I just tinkled the PC the whole day. We just had a copy of Warcraft Frozen Throne and then we downloaded DotA Allstars in the office, and that made me stay all afternoon at the office.

I woke up at 10PM and fixed myself for work. As I logged on to my workstation, there had been two jobs for me. I finished the first one at 3AM, and started to examine the second job. During that time, I feel so sleepy, and I can barely open up my eyes. I even joked around the other officemates just to be alive and kicking for work. I had no choice but to be awake and finish my job. I wanted to sleep though, but my snoring problem really beats me out. So what did I do? I went out without telling Mark where I am going, and I happened to pass by Sam and borrowed the room keys (for I left mine) and as I reached my room I grabbed a pillow and slept. The very next thing was Jeremy called me on my cellular phone and told me that Jon (my boss) was very worried and he hold me that I should continue my sleep and he will handle my job.

Pretty bad. I'm such a blooper. I wanted to apologize to Jon, but still my body was very weak to go to the office. I promised Sam that I was to get to the workstation an hour after, but still I just reclined on my bed. Damn!


Thursday, August 25, 2005

My Past And My Hoping-To-Be Future

LAST WEEK, our island-hopping plan came into reality. It was really fun. Also, my boss was here in Lapu-lapu City to join and train us. Last week was a really hectic schedule, but it was fun and cool!

TWENTY YEARS AGO, I was two (2) years old. As to that, I can hardly remember what happened to me during that time.

FIFTEEN YEARS AGO, I was seven (7) years old. I can still remember that I broke a flower pot into my head playing "who's the strongest" with my cousin. I bled and I was rushed to the hospital, with me tasting the blood that gushed out and eventually reached my mouth.

TEN YEARS AGO, I was 12 years old. I can still remember that I was a fuzz at Resel (my grade 6 crush) since she just heard me utter something which was very conceited, and it made her furious. She gave me a card that says "I hate you, and you're such an ugly, conceited braggart". I was supposed to give her a sorry flower but as I read the message I tore the card in the flower and made a card addressed to Freya. So bad of me.

FIVE YEARS AGO, I was 17 years old. I can still remember that mom wanted me out of the family because I didn't followed her advice that I have to break up with Karen because it made me crazy like I was doing things which ought doesn't describe me. On that year also, Yoni and I are discussing faith and such because I was an agnostic that time. That very year I broke up with Karen and moved on with life with a fresh start.

THREE YEARS AGO, I was 19 years old. I can still remember this year as a glory year for me. I survived fourth year college without a single book opened and on evenings I go out with drinking sprees. No unusual thing happened to me though in this year.

LAST YEAR, I look very very fat. It was like hell. Everyday was a beer day to me. Me and my barkada start drinking sprees at 2 or 3PM and end up around 5 or 6AM the next day. I was addicted with MMORPG games by this year.

THIS YEAR, I finally finished my college degree. Thesis nights were very crucial for me, Bob, and Jeffrey. It was like two weeks were left, and we're still at the very start of it. It's a good thing we've finished it and made it to the isle (I have to walk the isle though next year). I now had a work in which it would be my bread and butter for survival. Bad for me that me and Zaki split up because of time constraints and long-distance relationship could not blossom. Until the end of the year, I must strive in order to get the promotion that I am waiting for.

NEXT YEAR, I hope I can have the luxury I always wanted. Also, next year will be the year that I will walk the isle with a diploma in my hand.

TEN YEARS FROM NOW, I hope that on that time I have a family to live with.

WHO I WISHED WOULD TAKE THESE QUESTIONS? Anyone can ;)


Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Islandscapade


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Views Of Some Of Mactan's Islands
(I Cannot Memorize Their Names)


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Happy And Eager People

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Yours Truly
The Official Tanggero


Sunday, August 21, 2005

The Long-awaited Island Hopping Trip

At last our island-hopping trip around Mactan island was now a reality.

We took off around 8:30AM. Supposedly, we are to meet at 7:30AM at Orange Brutus in Basak, but unfortunately me and Jeffrey we're late! Jon and Todd we're there, together with the programmers (Owen wasn't able to come), Mushna, Donna, Raechelle, Ella, and Carlos' brother.

For the very first time I learned how to use the snorkel. Also for the very first time I had tried swimming far from the shore. All I am thankful is that my left arm was at a good condition that time, or else I could have ended up with a sling on it.

Right now, I'm very tired and I wanted to relax. At last, the long-awaited island-hopping trip was a reality. Next stop .... BOHOL!

***Pictures will follow***


Saturday, August 20, 2005

Seven

Again this is from Tom!

Seven Things That Scare Me
  • Being Alone
  • Stabbed At The Back
  • Bitten By A Snake
  • A Scorpion's Sting
  • Being Robbed
  • Drowning At Sea
  • Seeing A Goblin

  • Seven Things That I Like the Most
  • Sports
  • Nature Tripping
  • Tinkling the PC
  • Forums and Discussions
  • Food and Liquor Trip
  • Nightlife Escapades
  • Traveling (I hope I can)

  • Seven Important Things in My Bedroom
  • Bed (of course)
  • Electric Fan (If Airconditioner then it's cool)
  • Computer (I hope I can have one now)
  • Books and Magazines
  • Stamps, Bottles, and Cigar packs collection
  • A writing table and a chair of course
  • Guitar

  • Seven Random Facts About Me
  • Loves to drink and party-out
  • Loves blogging
  • Enjoys discussions and forums
  • Always has the mood for oldie clothing
  • Likes Alternative Rock and Trance and Techno
  • Skinny ones and now a fat one
  • Someone who needs to mend his left shoulder

  • Seven Things I Plan to do Before I die
  • Must have a family of course
  • Must have a tour at Greece
  • Do skydiving
  • Do scuba diving
  • Own a convertible
  • Have a great "something" with my name on it
  • Must own a business

  • Seven Things I can do
  • Drink beer all day
  • Can be a fast-learner in any sport
  • Write articles (nonsense or not)
  • Sing in a videoke
  • Make salads
  • Read anything sensual
  • Sleep at any position (hehehe)

  • Seven Things I Can’t Do
  • Reach my back with my left arm
  • Lie
  • Drive an automobile
  • See people far from me
  • Eat Durian
  • Sneak out and hide ('coz I'm big)
  • Play Counterstrike for an hour 'coz it makes me sick

  • Seven Things that Attract Me to the Opposite Sex
  • Clean Feet
  • Flawless Skin
  • Shapely Legs
  • Tantalizing Eyes
  • Intelligence
  • Open-mindedness
  • I like someone so sporty

  • Seven Things You Say the Most
  • Burak!
  • Oh My God!
  • Shits!
  • Buing!
  • Gago

  • Shet Kanamit!
  • Kayata!

  • Seven Celeb Crushes (whether local or foreign)
  • Karel Marquez
  • Nicole Hernandez
  • Toni Gonzaga
  • Jessica Alba
  • Jun-Jee-Hyun
  • Vicki Zhao Wei
  • Meg Ryan

  • Seven People I want to take this Quiz
  • Fleire
  • Aryangirl
  • Lurchelle
  • Apple
  • Andrei
  • Yang
  • Fhaty

  • The Book Club Tag

    I was tagged by Tom!
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    What's in a book?

    For me a book depict wonders. It can be so factual that it enriches our knowledge; it can be fantasy that can add some spice in our thought; it can be philosophical that can make us think what life is to be and what the world was meant for someone.

    Number of books on the shelves

    Mom really collects books, that's why I can claim I have such numerous books on the shelves! HAHAHA!

    Those that I own or bought:
      Jostein Gaarder's Sophie's World
      Antoine de Saint Exupery's The Little Prince
      Sun Tzu's The Art Of War
      Dan Brown books (I have read The Da Vinci Code and Angels And Demons)
      Robert Ludlum books (I have read The Matarese Circle)
      ***Other books I forgot already***
    Last few books that I bought:
      Dan Brown's Angels And Demons
      Dan Brown's The Da Vinci Code
    Book that I'm reading now:

    Jostein Gaarder's Sophie's World

    Last few books read:

    Dan Brown's Angels And Demons and The Da Vinci Code

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    Then I tag along Fleire, Russ, Ria, Nico, and Rolly.


    Friday, August 19, 2005

    Serenity

    How I wish I could be so serene like this one

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    My mind right now's not really that peaceful. I have many things in mind in which I want to disclose with. It's just that when problems struck me I feel like I am given the burdens of the earth.

    Let me classify some. First I miss my family so much, and I miss Iligan City. I am always thinking of when will be a time that I can spend such quality get-together with my mom and the rest of the family. Also, I miss my friends now since I am like "secluded" from the society because of my latest addiction to Frozen Throne DotA AllStars. I wanted Jeffrey to have a stable job right now, and I feel guilty that I haven't toured him yet on the outskirts of the city. To weigh much, I miss someone out there who doesn't even tell me if she's alright and doing great and someone whom I think does not care that much.

    I wish I can have a peace of mind. I wanted to be happy, but somehow I am depressed on my situation.


    Thursday, August 18, 2005

    Face-to-face With Your Boss

    It's been a while since I had stayed at Western Wats. I go to office, login to my PC, and email my boss Jon that I am online. My teammates does that too. It's like the Charlie's Angels movie that Jon tells us "Good Morning Angels". We haven't seen him or met him. It's like he's virtual to us. Carlos just did a phone conversation with him once, but also for him he seems to be somewhat virtual.

    Last Tuesday, we are to report at 4AM. Our boss Jon will be here to meet us in the office. We were very excited about it. What we did is to make speculations on what he looks like. Nova described him as a big, tall, not-so-old person who probably has a mustache on. I don't have some speculations since I'm not good at it, and also I don't want my speculations to be wronged if I have one. bad for her that her speculations were wrong.

    So by around 4:30AM two American guys arrived at the office. To me, I can sense who Jon would be, and I was right. The other guy was Todd, the one who will be with the data processors. We met and then had a good conversation with him. We joined him on every meal, and his presence really makes us feel that we're working in Utah. What makes me very nervous is when a time would come that it's my turn to talk. It seems that I ran out of topic, and then the hype of the conversation would be lost. But oh well, I just babbled things off-topic from work like Warcraft, computer games, and anything that goes through my head.

    With this event, it's like he's REAL. He's no "Charlie" in Charlie's angels. It's good that we have met him. It's very different when you face your boss than having a virtual chat.


    Monday, August 15, 2005

    Slipped Off The Gutter

    I was about to go to the office. I was still in our room at noon since Jeremy and Jeffrey talked a lot. We chatted, and we decided to go downstairs to play Frozen Throne DotA AllStars. I am not supposed to play, and I was supposed to go back to the office by 1PM to clean up my messy cubicle. But I was tempted. We played until 3PM. After 2 games, I hurried myself to the office.

    Before I was about to reach the entrance of MEPZ2, I saw Mushna and the other data processors. She called me, and we talked and talked. They told me that I should not go to the office for all of the people there had left. They really convinced me and I walked along with them. While walking and talking, it came to a point that I slipped the gutter. My pants are wet, as well as my shoes. It was very bad because it was not wet with water, but it was wet with mud. People who were there stared at me, as if I was a clumsy child.

    What did I do? I just pretended that Mushna pushed me, and then I lighted my cigar. I hurriedly walked up the room, and did the laundry. Damn! My shoes are wet and so are my pants and my socks. I went down the room and the people who saw me still stared at me as a clumsy child. What a shame!


    Saturday, August 13, 2005

    I Am A Boring Person

    Right now my routine is to wake up, fix myself, go down to our ever-friendly gamestation and play Frozen Throne DotA AllStars, eat, fix myself again, go to work, and then sleep after work.

    This has been my routine for two weeks now. It was only last Sunday that I went downtown to Cebu to have a night's pleasure with my roomies. I feel guilty because Jeffrey has just arrived here in Cebu since last Sunday and I haven't given him a chance to explore the outskirts of Cebu because of my boring routine. I'm so ashamed.

    Tomorrow I'm going to fix that. I was invited for a badminton game, and I'm not going to miss it. Next week will be more work for me since my boss will be arriving here in Cebu from Utah. I hope that Jeffrey will be given the job so that we can be officemates, and that means the teams are now balanced and we can now play Starcraft!


    Thursday, August 11, 2005

    Due To Stomach Pains

    Yesterday I had stomach pains. What caused it is abstract to me. The other day Jeremy and I raced to the room on our way out of the office to get to the bathroom first. Jeremy got in first and I have to wait, and then when Jeremy was finished I went in and did my stuff. Success! The bad feeling extended yesterday, that I have to stay at the room and had to skip work. It's a good thing Jeffrey was there to accompany me.

    The electricity was out. It was so hot in the room and all we did was just to talk about trash and nonsense stuff. We got bored, and when the lights flicked on, both of us had the same thinking that we must play Frozen Throne DotA Allstars. I cannot go out far from room because I am afraid that my stomach pains would occur again. It's a good thing that the game station's just on the first floor of the building.

    We played from 10AM up to 8PM and just had a lunch break at 2PM. Jeffrey and I played a 1-on-1 on our first round (bad for me I lost) and then 3 games were 3-on-3 (we won 3-0). Next we went 3-on-4 (we won again) and then we got to 4-on-4 (again we won). The last was a very great game. We played 5-on-5 and we won the game. I just played as the Phantom Lancer (except for the 1-on-1 game in which I played as the Treant Protector).

    Due to stomach pains, I spent my yesterday with DotA Allstars. It was not my intention that I cannot go far from the room because of my condition. If I were at office yesterday, I could have saved my money from the food and from the computer usage. But oh well! Addiction is addiction, and when you're really hooked up with it, you'll really spend no matter what!


    Wednesday, August 10, 2005

    Someone Hates Me Now

    Three days from now, and from that day going 3 months backward marks the day of me and Zaki. Honestly, while writing this article my eyes are wet with tears.

    Last week I wrote a friendster testimonial to Zaki. To my surprise, she haven't approved it. Moreover with the profile deletions and with the ever SMS and call denial, I think she hates me. I really wondered why. I recalled our conversation during the time of our breakup and I realized that maybe I may have hurt her. I uttered these words ....

    "Honestly, I know that on this very moment of our meet I was expecting that you would break up with me!"

    I really thought that line might have hurt her. I was not expecting though, but it slipped my tongue. So very bad of me. It hurt her that much since by the time that I took her to her dormitory she said "So you're expecting, huh?" and I had nothing to say but just simply to shook my head which was very late for me to eat those words back.

    Am I that really bad? I know that I treasure relationships, even be possessive when I do feel that the need arises (I am not that "possessive"). But why did this occur to me? Karen (my first girlfriend) confronted me last year to become friends and Myra (my second girlfriend) and I are now at peace-mode. I don't want my past to happen again with Zaki, but in this situation I think history repeated itself.

    And now here I am, still my eyes are wet. Zaki, if you are reading this I hope you'll forgive me for what I have done to you.


    Monday, August 08, 2005

    Saying "I Love You"

    Yesterday, I got up a quarter near 7AM. I was supposed to fetch Jeffrey at Pier 5 since he hardly knows the way here in Cebu (last time he went here was with me two years ago). After fetching him, we went to Chowking in Jones and then talked and talked about what happened in Iligan City, and about his applications in Western Wats.

    Around 9AM, we had decided to give Pepe a visit. Before we had arrived at his dormitory, we happened to pass by a Phone Card shop. I stopped and bought myself a hundred-credit prepaid phone card, and went to Bo's Coffee and dialed a number which directs me to my home in Iligan City. Genevieve had picked up the phone, and she trasferred it to my mom.

    Mom was really talkative. She always asks me if I am fine here. In our conversations, there are three things in which she never forgets to ask. First is "Have you ever had saved from your salary"?, second is "Have you ever watched over your weight?", and the other is "How's your shoulder?". We just chit-chatted for half and hour, told me about the events at home, told her of my happenings at work and in my social life, and talked about anything.

    I was now about to say goodbye at mom when she uttered "Take Care .... Love You". It pounded me. When was the last time I heard her say that? That I do not know. Gosh! I was stunned! I replied "I love you too"!


    Saturday, August 06, 2005

    I Think This Is Physical Abuse

    Yesterday I woke up at 4PM. Without further hesitation, I dressed up, brushed my teeth, and went downstairs the apartment to go to the gaming station and play Frozen Throne. Damn! Am I really addicted with this game? I played up until 10PM and had a quick late-supper with Jeremy and then I reported at my workstation by 10PM.

    At the office, My tasklist to do a seven-paged-documented program. It was only seven pages though, but it's really a tough one. Up until this time of my post, I am still awake, and guess what? I am eyeing for a sleep somewhat like that of the cat below.

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    Friday, August 05, 2005

    Now I Am Really This Tired

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    Just A Snore

    This morning I feel that I am weak. I don't know. It's not that I haven't slept yesterday afternoon. I slept around 10:30AM and then I woke up at 7PM. That's not bad for a good sleep. I woke up and ate my supper and then I spent two hours playing Frozen Throne and then afterwards I prepared myself for me to go to the office.

    Work for this time was really a hustle. Doing something which isn't your work is a tedious task. And not to include the several changes from the client that I am working with. I was bugged with several requests of "Do this, delete this, add this, change this" work. My brain did functioned, but after doing ALL work in which the client requested really slowed me down.

    I was listening to Cueshe music with the headphone inserted on my head. I reclined myself to a position that my feet would be on top of the CPU. I didn't intend to sleep, but just to ease out. After doing so, I just found out that I snored. It was only once, but it was very loud. I woke up with that and found out that Mark's head turned to me, and so did my other office mates who were at the other side of the cubicle. Damn! It's so shameful of me!


    Thursday, August 04, 2005

    My Latest Addiction

    Lately I had been addicted to Frozen Throne. Me, Eizzel, and Jeremy are trying to figure a good team strategy for the DotA game. After work, we go out at a nearby gaming station just to play the game, and sometimes play with other players as well. Eizzel's a good strategy player, so as Jeremy. I am still a noob, but I am trying to keep up with them. This has been my latest addiction by now.

    The weird part is that with this latest addiction of mine, I don't crave for drinking sprees anymore. I dunno why. The so-called party-monger trickyboy turned himself into a control-freak trickyboy. I morphed into something new. Probably a product of boredom, but hell it is not the main reason. I simply find that there are many more things to explore rather than going out on a drinking spree and waste myself afterwards. As the Sherminator of American Pie 2 says, "I am a geek".


    When A Tear Drops

    "I don't know why this won't stop, cause maybe it just won't stop."
    Hale

    Had you had an experience that a tear would drop when you hear a song with such touching lyrics? I do sometimes shed a tear when I watch movies and then a dialogue simply strucks me. For a song, I never had experienced it until now.

    I was listening to Hale's Bent Down when suddenly I shed a tear just before the song ended. The lyrics was good and the song was great. Since my playlist was only composed of Hale, Cueshe and Sponge Cola songs, it came to a point that the song will be repeated. For the second repeat, not only a tear dropped, but my eyes were now wet. Good thing it was fast for me to wipe them out before Mark could see me (for it's only the two of us who are in the office at that time).

    That song was really touching. The more touching part is the thought of having someone to think of. I should be happy by now since she's happy by now (I think). Well it's not bad to shed a tear though. A woman and a man would shed a tear when emotions would struck like lightning. As Hale also puts it, "I know I am and I will though it’s wrong, so wrong."

    "Made up my mind on this
    Too late for me to hold you back
    Maybe too short or dumb
    To cry for you but I will anyway"

    Hale


    To The Ever Crazy Moira ....

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    Perverts Family

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

    Everything that you had dreamed of are coming to you step by step. You're the one who just said that "I am determined to get my mark", and I know that you can. I am sorry for those times that we're like Tom and Jerry that we don't understand each other, and that I have eventually turned you down. You're family's very proud of you. Just cling on, don't lose hope, and take care always.

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again!


    Wednesday, August 03, 2005

    Trying To Move On

    It's mostly over a month now since I saw Zaki. I can still remember those dialogues that we had during that day of confrontation. I wanted to post it here, but Zaki told me before not to ever post our dialogue in my blog. Why am I thinking about her? It's simply that I miss her so. Even though I had been preoccupied that it would make me forget about the incident, but it seems that I missed her so much. More and more, my phone's inbox are full of her sweet messages. I had not deleted her messages since.

    I try to think that I have to move on, forget the thoughts, and just post it on my history book. I can't. Everyday I open Friendster.com and I never logout without looking at her profile. I even look at the horoscopes even though I don't believe in such. Today as I opened it her profile changed. My so-called "testimonial" concerning her description had been deleted. Moreover, her favorites seems to lack those of which both of us had in common. I thought that she had been forcing herself to forget me, or my existence, or whatever. That explains too with her not responding on calls and on SMS.

    What I am hoping now is for "something to happen". Zaki, if you are reading this article, I hope you open up to me, 'coz I don't want to be lonely anymore.


    Tuesday, August 02, 2005

    Para Sa Iyo ... Bob Dale

    .... na naging karamay ko nung college days
    .... na naging kabahagi ng aking buhay
    .... na nagbigay saya sa panahon na ako'y nalulungkot
    .... na minsan naging katunggali ng ilang bagay
    .... na nagpatalas ng aking pag-iisip
    .... na karamay sa kainan at inuman at tawanan at iyakan
    .... na kahit kailan, kaibigan!

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY PARE! Alam mo naman na namimiss ko na yung pagsasama natin. Alam kong mararating mo rin yung inaaasam mong kasiyahan sa buhay, ang tagumpay na naghihintay lang diyan sa isang sulok ng buhay mo! Kung may problema ka, isang tawag o text lang ang layu natin.

    *Shucks! Parang first time kong nakapag-post ng Tagalog na blog! Hehe*


    I Was "Cueshe'd"

    "And if you’ll stay, I’ll hold your hand 'cause I’m truly, madly, crazily in love with you."
    Cueshe

    The whole evening I was "Cueshe'd" by these Cebuano rock and roll fanatics. I tried to query the band's name at an online dictionary and it didn't pinged me a reply. So I just browsed their online profile and then eventually found out that they came up with that name because "We thought of it as a novel idea to come up with a band name from such an ordinary snack food. We used to eat a lot of that after band rehearsals when we stared." The band is composed of Jay Justiniani on vocals, Ruben Caballero on vocals and guitar, Jovan Mabini on lead guitar, Jhunjie Dosdos on keyboards, and song writers Fritz Labrado on bass and Mike Manaloto on drums.

    Their music let me "Stay" tuned up. That song which I quoted was the only song I tried to repeat over and over. Since I was done with my work, I got myself a copy of the lyrics and tried to sing. My officemates did poked me to lower down my volume since I was freaking out loud. Well I was on a headphone, and I could hardly hear my singing (so that explains why my volume doesn't lower down).

    Anyways, I'll try to buy a copy of their album. I am very picky in buying music sheets, 'coz I don't want to spend on such (there's MP3 with whom I can rely to).

    Cueshe's cool. Mga pare astig talaga kayo! You really rocked my night out!


    My Night Was Filled With ....

    .... cool OPM music. GRABE! I really thought that Pinoy rock and alternative's dead when many 90's rock legends were lost and never had revived. My likings of Wolfgang and Razorback did boosted my hype for OPM music. Wolfgang's gone, and I had never heard any from Razorback. There are other Pinoy bands whom I had missed. I really thought it was really the end for rock and alternative the Pinoy style.

    Esther did let us copy her collection of MP3's one time. I haven't opened the folder and browsed the contents of it. It's just now that I opened the folder and slipped it in Windows Media Player. Good thing JD's here in the office to lend me a headphone. What's on my playlist was SpongeCola, Cueshe, and Hale. Listening to their music really soothed my night. It's only me and Mark who's at the "programmer's heaven" here in the office, and I only see a little people at the office. I haven't known these three bands until now (except for Sponge Cola since me, Jerecho and Ron played their "Crazy For You" way back the 2005 Engineering Week, so literally I knew them, but not all until I just browsed the net for their bios).



    Cueshe

    Hale

    Sponge Cola

    At least I listen to cool music while doing my work. I find it so silent if there's no soothing music captured by my eardrums. For now, these three bands rocked my world!


    Monday, August 01, 2005

    X Marks The Spot

    If it hasn't been from Fleire I shouldn't have answered this one! Hehehe ....

    So here's what you do. When you read this, you're supposed to answer the questions too. The "x" means you've done whatever's listed.

    ( ) Smoked a joint
    (x) Been in a wet t-shirt contest
    ( ) Crashed a car
    ( ) stolen a car
    (x) Been in love
    ( ) Had a threesome
    (x) Been dumped
    ( ) Shoplifted
    ( ) Been fired
    (x) Been in a fist fight
    (x) Snuck out of the house
    (x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
    ( ) Been arrested
    (x) Made out with a stranger
    ( ) Gone on a blind date
    (x) Lied to a friend
    (x) Had a crush on a teacher
    ( ) Been to Europe
    (x) Skipped school
    ( ) Seen someone die
    ( ) Been to Canada
    ( ) Been to Mexico
    ( ) Been on a plane
    ( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
    ( ) Thrown up in a bar
    ( ) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire
    (x) Eaten Sushi
    ( ) Been snowboarding
    (x) Met someone from the internet in person
    (x) Been moshing at a concert
    ( ) Been in an abusive relationship
    (x) Taken painkillers
    (x) Love someone or miss someone right now
    ( ) Laid and watched cloud shapes go by
    ( ) Made a snow angel
    ( ) Had a tea party
    (x) Flown a kite
    (x) Built a sand castle
    ( ) Gone puddle jumping
    (x) Played dress up
    (x) Jumped into a pile of leaves
    ( ) Gone sledding
    (x) Cheated while playing a game
    (x) Been lonely
    (x) Fallen asleep at work/school
    (x) Used a fake ID
    (x) Watched the sunset
    (x) Felt an earthquake
    ( ) Touched a snake
    (x) Slept beneath the stars
    (x) Been tickled
    ( ) Been robbed
    (x) Been misunderstood
    ( ) Pet a reindeer/goat
    (x) Won a contest
    ( ) Run a red light
    ( ) Been suspended from school
    ( ) Been in a car accident
    (x) Had braces
    (x) Felt like an outcast
    (x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
    (x) Had deja vu
    (x) Danced in the moonlight
    (x) Hated the way you look
    (x) Witnessed a crime
    ( ) Pole danced
    (x) Been obsessed with post-it notes
    (x)Walked barefoot through the mud
    (x) Been lost
    ( ) Been to the opposite side of the world
    ( ) Swam in the ocean
    (x) Felt like dying
    (x) Cried yourself to sleep
    (x) Played cops and robbers
    ( ) Recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
    (x) Sung karaoke
    ( ) Paid for a meal with only coins
    (x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
    ( ) Made prank phone calls when you were younger
    (x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
    ( ) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
    ( ) Danced naked in the rain
    (x) Written a letter to Santa Claus
    ( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe
    ( ) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
    (x) Blown bubbles
    (x) Had a bonfire on the beach
    (x) Crashed a party
    (x) Gone rollerblading
    ( ) Had a wish come true
    ( ) Worn pearls
    ( ) Jumped off a bridge
    ( ) Screamed the word penis in public
    ( ) Ate dog/cat food
    ( ) Told a complete stranger you loved them
    ( ) Kissed a mirror
    (x) Sang in the shower
    ( ) Owned a little black dress
    (x) Had a dream that you married someone
    (x) Glued your hand to something
    ( ) Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
    ( ) Kissed a fish
    (x) Worn the opposite sex's clothes
    ( ) Been a cheerleader
    (x) Sat on a roof top
    (x) Screamed at the top of your lungs
    (x) Done a one-handed cartwheel
    (x) Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
    (x) Stayed up all night
    ( ) Didn't take a shower for a week
    ( ) Picked and ate an apple right off the tree
    (x) Climbed a tree
    ( ) Had a tree house
    (x) Are (NOT) scared to watch scary movies
    ( ) Believe in ghosts
    ( ) Have more than 30 pairs of shoes
    (x) Worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
    ( ) Gone streaking
    ( ) Played chicken
    ( ) Been skinny dipping
    (x) Been pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on
    ( ) Been told your beautiful by a complete stranger
    ( ) Broken a bone
    (x) Been easily amused
    ( ) Caught a fish then ate it
    (x) Caught a butterfly
    (x) Laughed so hard you cried
    ( ) Cried so hard you laughed
    ( ) Mooned/flashed someone
    ( ) Had someone moon/flash you
    (x) Cheated on a test
    (x) Forgotten someone's name
    (x) Slept naked
    ( ) French braided someone's hair
    ( ) Grown a beard