Believing An Entity

"If I am capable of grasping God objectively, I do not believe, but precisely because I cannot do this I must believe. If I wish to preserve myself in faith I must constantly be intent upon holding fast the objective uncertainty, so as to remain out upon the deep, over seventy thousand fathoms of water, still preserving my faith"
Soren Kierkegaard

Many philosophers have formulated their projects. To some extent, they haven't reached their ultimate goal. So what they do they abate on it and formulate a thesis out of it. While they make it as a thesis, there are others that makes an anti-thesis, and at some point a synthesis will be made from both. At a point of time, that synthesis will be a thesis and then a cycle now begins. It's like all are made by thoughts. There are those that are made by material things, but existentially they still lack something that could prove its worth.

No such philosopher have made it to their extremes. There had been no ultimate existential philosophy that barraged our thoughts. Like for instance with Kierkegaard, I can say that he haven't reached his ultimate thesis by looking at the statement.

For me, I am still doubtful on the existence of such an entity. I do have faith, but somehow being that "open-minded" screws up my mind. My skepticism's always the numerator on all things when philosophy battles within me. Why am I babbling now? I don't know. If I had been wrong on my thesis, damn! It would really show how troubled my mind is concerning my views of life.

Could someone give me a peace of mind?