Priorities

I was hired as a programmer for about 4 months now. For the duration, I still feel like I haven't set my priority yet. Frozen Throne DotA AllStars, weekend gimmicks, tinkling the net, pocketbooks ... what else had been my doings during my stay here in Lapulapu City? I haven't touched anything related to business, planning, technology, innovation, and anything "worthwhile" as to what most workaholics describe of.

Lately, something's bothering my mind. I have a cousin who's very very sick with hyperthyroidism. I have a cousin who have not stepped college, and cousins who are still on their highscool years. I have a cousin who needs to finish her degree in college, but the most important thing is that I still have my mom to attend to her needs. I feel like I haven't turned the tables yet.

Even though I am very far from home, I still think that I am responsible in helping out the family. As my brother tells me always, "We really need to help each other especially now that crises are tormenting the family." I feel ashamed that I am here having the most of my life, and have not "helped" my family. I am still starting, and worse of it, it torments me when I can't give them the most that I could have.

Do I really need to set my priorities? My stand is that it's okay for me to give them my all 'coz I can still live without the luxuries. I have grasped them during my college days, and I don't want to see my family in grief. I really hope all things are well for us. I really don't want to blog this one but my fingers forced me to.