I Thought I Was Dead
Last Saturday was really a breath-taking day. I really thought that my life would end there. Honestly by that day I really tried to enjoy myself because the thought of being dead was really in my mind.
Starting the day that I worked as a nightshift programmer in the company, I just spend 1 or 2 hours of sleep a day except on weekends that I sleep even over 10 hours. Since then, I had this insomnia with me. I drink like 5 to 6 mugs of coffee a day, smoke like half a pack a day, drink plenty of Coke, eat "unwise" food, drink beer until I drop on weekends, and no exercise.
After going out with Rizza last Saturday, I went to the room and tried myself to get a good sleep. I felt that I am numb and poison begins to flow on my bloodstream. My head is very hot, and my neck is in pain. I couldn't move, and I just lied on my bed with my eyes open, unable to blink. I can hear the voices of my roomies, but I cannot talk. I wanted to tell them to get me to the hospital, but I can't. I just lied as if I am half-dead. What I did was I tried to close my eyes and I just prayed.
By Sunday morning, I hear rain drops on our roof. THANK GOODNESS! I jumped out of bed and saw my roomies up and stared at me as if I am from nowhere. I exclaimed "I'm still alive?" THANK GOODNESS! By that instant also I knew that they are going to church, so I just dressed up and went with them. At church, I really cried hard. I cried because I wanted good things to happen to me. I cried also because I wanted to take the challenge for myself to really change for good. I cried also because I wanted to forget all the bad things which happened into my life, and I cried because I was given hope. Sam patted me at the back and asked me if I'm alright, and I said "Yes I am."
I thought I was dead .... but I AM ALIVE! THANK GOODNESS!
Starting the day that I worked as a nightshift programmer in the company, I just spend 1 or 2 hours of sleep a day except on weekends that I sleep even over 10 hours. Since then, I had this insomnia with me. I drink like 5 to 6 mugs of coffee a day, smoke like half a pack a day, drink plenty of Coke, eat "unwise" food, drink beer until I drop on weekends, and no exercise.
After going out with Rizza last Saturday, I went to the room and tried myself to get a good sleep. I felt that I am numb and poison begins to flow on my bloodstream. My head is very hot, and my neck is in pain. I couldn't move, and I just lied on my bed with my eyes open, unable to blink. I can hear the voices of my roomies, but I cannot talk. I wanted to tell them to get me to the hospital, but I can't. I just lied as if I am half-dead. What I did was I tried to close my eyes and I just prayed.
By Sunday morning, I hear rain drops on our roof. THANK GOODNESS! I jumped out of bed and saw my roomies up and stared at me as if I am from nowhere. I exclaimed "I'm still alive?" THANK GOODNESS! By that instant also I knew that they are going to church, so I just dressed up and went with them. At church, I really cried hard. I cried because I wanted good things to happen to me. I cried also because I wanted to take the challenge for myself to really change for good. I cried also because I wanted to forget all the bad things which happened into my life, and I cried because I was given hope. Sam patted me at the back and asked me if I'm alright, and I said "Yes I am."
I thought I was dead .... but I AM ALIVE! THANK GOODNESS!
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