Mr. Fantastic

It was too late for me to watch the Fantastic 4 movie. I wasn't able to watch it on bigscreen since at that time I was worried of my budget (because of the drinking sprees). So now I have watched it at home (Yipee! It's good to have an entertainment showcase at home). What I am to babble here is that I envy Mr. Fantastic. I don't envy his power to stretch, but I envy him because of his brains.

Lately I am doing my BASIC javascript course. BASIC in the sense that it's my first time to do a "real" project. It has been a week now and I still haven't completed my first exercise. I cannot think well, and still I lack the determination to push through with the learning. I used to be a fast-learner (not to brag but I am) but why on earth I cannot finish my project? It's like a slap on my face that I have taken my college years for granted. This wasn't taught in school, but maybe the time that I spent in college was totally a waste. For now, it shows that I am still "unprepared" for work.

Right now I feel like I'm a paranoid. I feel that in the programming team that I belong I am the slow poke, I am the slow-thinker. In short, I am a disgrace to the team. I don't want to be such. But as I entered the company, I am very aware that my work preferences would be different to what I would expect. Different field would mean that I should get out of my boundaries and explore more. The problem is that I still haven't set this goal.

I feel strong now, but still I need the power. I don't want to be like Dr. Doom that needs power to control everything. I want to be Mr. Fantastic that needs power to control thyself.

For everyone, make good use of your capabilities. Don't waste it, and don't use your capabilities in hurting others but use it for the betterment of all!