Health Needed

Mom always tells me to take care of my health because our family have no idea if I got some thyroid problems. As they say, maybe I have hypothyroidism. Way back my highschool up to 2nd year in college, I used to be so thin and I only weigh like 115 pounds. I was stunned that I got to reach 205 pounds on my 3rd year in college. Now I'm in 175.

At Iligan City I really don't have fever, colds, headaches, and the likes. What I have are just accidents. Right now I feel so bad because for 2-3 weeks I can have fever and colds. The worst part is that my left shoulder's really sore. My problem is that I don't want to take medication because maybe these can just be cured by "normal" means. And to take the worse of everything, I am now so FAT.

Last night I feel bad because of hyperacidity. I can hardly sleep, and there was no one inside to get me some medication for Jeremy fell asleep because of hyperacidity also. I also thought that it's the end of everything. The worse part is that I can barely move because if I move, it will just worsen the situation. I tried to sleep but I really can't. But maybe I just fell asleep because I was really tired and I was awake for almost 26 hours.

This morning I just woke up and was very happy because I AM STILL ALIVE. As you might notice I feel like if I have just a sickness it's like the end of the world. It's only just because I never had experienced sickness in my life.

So anyone care to give me good health tips?

Originals And Revivals

Now it has been my routine to watch MTV before I sleep on my mornings. It's the only channel that has a "clear" output from our TV (I wonder when will I fix our TV antenna). Right now I have this very cravings for Pinoy Rock and Alternative music, and now come also the Emo and Indies. From the oldies to the newest band that hit the charts today I really am an avid listener to the genres I listed above. At this point, the music scene's really a blast, because there had been many rising stars and rocking bands that made it to the industry.

Last time, I missed the Y-speak episode regarding original and revival music. I wonder what Sugarfree has to say against MYMP. For me, I really appreciate the originals. I REALLY HATE REVIVALS. If I were to rate "Pinoy Pop" it really sucks big time. Like for instance Sarah Geronimo (frankly speaking you sing very well but the notion of revivals really pushed you down) has this video in which she revived a song and then she was declared as the Digital Diva.

My Goodness! Don't you guys compose your own songs? The "Originals" really sweat out just to compose that, and they (some of them) don't get the credits as much as the "reviving artists" does. And again, it's a shame to the music industry. Many local bands are composing their own music, and even paid much just to get a recording. Geez!

I Thought I Was Dead

Last Saturday was really a breath-taking day. I really thought that my life would end there. Honestly by that day I really tried to enjoy myself because the thought of being dead was really in my mind.

Starting the day that I worked as a nightshift programmer in the company, I just spend 1 or 2 hours of sleep a day except on weekends that I sleep even over 10 hours. Since then, I had this insomnia with me. I drink like 5 to 6 mugs of coffee a day, smoke like half a pack a day, drink plenty of Coke, eat "unwise" food, drink beer until I drop on weekends, and no exercise.

After going out with Rizza last Saturday, I went to the room and tried myself to get a good sleep. I felt that I am numb and poison begins to flow on my bloodstream. My head is very hot, and my neck is in pain. I couldn't move, and I just lied on my bed with my eyes open, unable to blink. I can hear the voices of my roomies, but I cannot talk. I wanted to tell them to get me to the hospital, but I can't. I just lied as if I am half-dead. What I did was I tried to close my eyes and I just prayed.

By Sunday morning, I hear rain drops on our roof. THANK GOODNESS! I jumped out of bed and saw my roomies up and stared at me as if I am from nowhere. I exclaimed "I'm still alive?" THANK GOODNESS! By that instant also I knew that they are going to church, so I just dressed up and went with them. At church, I really cried hard. I cried because I wanted good things to happen to me. I cried also because I wanted to take the challenge for myself to really change for good. I cried also because I wanted to forget all the bad things which happened into my life, and I cried because I was given hope. Sam patted me at the back and asked me if I'm alright, and I said "Yes I am."

I thought I was dead .... but I AM ALIVE! THANK GOODNESS!

Forgiveness

In my silence I would love to forget
But restitution hasn't come quite yet
And with one accord I keep moving forth
I stretch my heart to heal some more
Collective Soul

Deeply I am still troubled to the fact that Jackie is avoiding me. I don't want to show much details here, but I cannot fathom the thought that I wasn't forgiven. I keep on telling myself that I have to get over it, but I can't. My mind's always made up that I don't want anyone to include me in their enemy list. I cannot help it.

So here it is, just like a LOST AND FOUND report .... how I wish someone could extend out to her (whoever knows her) that I am REALLY SORRY.

Politics And God

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
Philippians 4:13

Lately I have watched the country's current news and events. There are several chants of "Gloria Resign" in the air. Massive demonstrations and rallies are rampant. Debates were flowing freely, and most people are on to polls in order to participate in this so-called political crisis.

Of all "events" I am really sick of watching prayer rallies. Too many personalities abuse the usage of the word "GOD" (or "LORD"). Many use them in a sentence structure like "Bahala na si Lord na siya ang magpatalsik kay Gloria" or like "Ang kanyang katapusan ay binibilang na ni Lord". Most use these lines as their deep constructs on current events today. I wonder if they do have good arguments on their moves for Gloria's ouster. I am not giving my side on the current political crisis. I am not also an atheist.

And guess what? Peace offerings? I wonder if the money they have gathered on their prayer rallies (if I'm not mistaken) would lead to something worthwhile for their ouster campaigns. Geez .... let's be transparent people!

Business, Anyone?

Have you got a feeling that you are very eager to work, energetic, full of ideas, and wears a smile on your face?

Right now, I am thinking of ways to get out of the "after-work-boredom". After work I go to sleep and then when I wake up I just fix myself and go to the office to work. Pretty boring, isn't it?

Last Sunday, Pepe and Lawrence accompanied me to have coffee and beer at Hapjaps in Ayala. We were thinking of utilizing our time after work. We decided to create a business, but the problem is we really don't know. What the three of us dig is web business. For me, the Web is really saturated with consumers. So basically, we can earn while we learn if we can get the gold out of our diggings.

*Blah Blah Blah .... and the conversation goes*

So what's good to indulge? I have many wacky ideas, but my problem is when and how to start ... HAHAHA!!!!