Lost ....

I'm so lost to the blogging world right now. It's because that my PC at home's not functioning (my monitor pissed out for a month now) and still my vendor haven't repaired it yet (grrr). Anyways, as an update .... my friend Arndt was hospitalized because of kidney troubles but I am glad that he's into his fast recovery now. I was in Iligan City last week but I wasn't able to visit my barkada (I didn't tell them that I was on vacation) but I spent my vacation with my family (it was my mom's birthday).

Anyways as a repost, I'd like to post here what I posted at friendster ....

I lost someone who was really dear to me. I don't know if time and space would permit for us to meet again and be friends, but somehow I only see a void on that realization. Jackie had been so dear to me. A time came when we got into a relationship that I thought was bound for a lifetime, but it fuzzed out. I am not her friend now, and I just hope and wish that we'll be friends again. Too bad I have lost someone ...

Test Everything

You know why I haven't posted for a week? It's because I have an office blooper that I cannot take with in my conscience. I blew up a project for my company, and it's worth a huge amount of money that I can ever imagine off. I can see myself in the droplist of the company. To the fact that they have entrusted me as "one" of the best programmers in the company (they say but it doesn't show) I have a great responsibility of checking all things at hand and make my work near to perfect - and I have failed it. It's really hard to do, but to get rid of bloopers one must attain that work value.

Last week it had been very hard for me. After work, I always end up with a bottle of beer or perhaps a "doseful" of it (if there's such a term). Good thing is that the programming manager that I had been working with these days is very good to me.

Lesson: Test everything. Never assume that you have always done right! No matter what happens, take second, third or maybe up to the nth opinions. As Al Pacino says it in his great movie The Recruit, "EVERYTHING IS A TEST!"

May Fever

It's really a month that I have not posted anything. I did it on purpose. During the last week of April there's something that directed me not to write on May. Let's just say that this May has been a blogging holiday for me, and as well as a best holiday for me. Below are just some things that happened to me last month:

Health

I always wanted to "reduce" my uber weight, but somehow I'm really stubborn. You know what happened to me? Here it goes. It was sometime the second week of May, and I felt something heavy at the back of my neck. I really thought it was an attack of high-blood pressure. I rested for a day, but on the next day it came again. I cannot work with something that bothers me. So I went to a nearby clinic to check my blood pressure. They say I am normal (120 over 90). For the whole week they say that I am normal. Damn! I called my mom and told her about this. I am afraid that they say I am normal and I feel restless. I asked my officemates and Nova told me that it might be "mild stroke" - and I am pretty scared. I just calmed down and prayed. There's a eureka that came into my mind. I took of my eyeglasses, and for four days the "bad feeling" subdued. So without hesitation, I went to a neuro-opthalmologist and had my dose of check-up. The doctor says I have a "depression" in the eye which is located into the nerve itself (I can't recall all things she told me - it's too "medical" for me). She says that I need it operated, but she gave me 6 months observation. So, I just had my glasses changed and viola, everything went fine, but my mind still thinks of that 6-months observation. And not only that, I still have to get a heart and lungs check from the other doctors to see if I am healthy. DARNS ... now I will forced to have gym sessions.

Work

Now without our boss, everything turned out different. As one of the "team leader" in the programming department, I'm kinda stressed to check out everything that's happening in our crib. Not also to mention, I have to converse to other programming managers in Utah just to update on a certain project and check whether we are to setup it and/or do preliminary data processing. It's kinda busy you know. For the whole month, I feel like I am dragging myself near stress, and for like after 5 hours of work I kinda fell asleep for an hour (that's why I always extend my stay in the office). I promised my boss before he went out that I make a system that would be easy for us to check programs, but until now I only had it 30% done (too many drafts - and I have a feeling that one head cannot do all the thinking).

Friends

Now with the IT peeps of our school near our house, there had been like "drinking sprees" lately. An officemate of ours owns a sizzling place, and after work we go out there to eat and drink (not to mention they have a nice videoke inside). Our DOTA friends too always invites us for DOTA games and drinking sprees after. So it's like EVERYDAY had been a drinking spree for us (unhealthy, isn't it?). I am glad that I have friends here. My life has been boring before, but with them I feel like I am at home.

Family

I am so thankful for my family. They give me strength and encouragement in life. My mom would always say "Patrick you need to save money" and somehow with my health experience I learned a lesson that I should budget everything. Also to mention that I need to organize things because since before, that's the part where I always fail.

Music and Gigs

Wow I cannot imagine that I have seen live Fra Lippo Lippi for just 300 pesos. It's worth the fun listening to old songs in a while with friends. For the month of May it's just that event that I have seen. I cannot imagine Cebu doesn't have "good" gigs this summer compared last year when GMA and ABS were all here, and so are the other "music industry" icons. It's so silent - and the Nipa hut's videoke had been my friendly music gig place!

Movies

I have watched X-men 3 and The Da Vinci Code. Here are my words: X-men 3's dull, and The Da Vinci Code's shallow. I can cry popcorn on X3 (I cannot imagine Cyclops died just by kissing Jean Grey, and Wolverine loves Jean Grey by striking her with his adamantium claws). The Da Vinci Code is somewhat different in the book (that's why I am wondering if it's best to read the book and watch the movie after or is it the other way around). And it's just this month only that I knew that Sir Ian Mckellen's gay (Oh my).

Love Life - Nah let's not talk about it. I'm kinda barren to that.


So that's for the month of May. That month had been nearly "tragic" to me. I thought that I might end up in a hospital, but thank God He have given me much strength to carry on.

And guess what??? I am now enjoying the uber-tech of Nokia N70. Pretty cool!!!